Jason Collins’ Ex-Fiancee Claims She Didn’t Know He Was Gay
Jason Collins' ex-fiancee and longtime girlfriend told the New York Daily News on Tuesday that she never suspect that the NBA veteran was gay, even after he broke off their engagement in 2009.
"It's not easy to understand. I had dreams of having children and having a husband, and I still have those dreams," Carolyn Moo, a former Women's National Basketball Association player, told the Daily News. "Anger was a definite emotion that I had to work through," she added, regarding how their relationship ended. "I think it would only be human to be angry about diminished dreams. Otherwise, I would think that you're robotic."
On Monday, Collins, made history when he revealed in a Sports Illustrated editorial that he is gay, making him the first active male professional player of a major U.S. sport to come out.
Moos, 34, and Collins met when they were basketball players for Stanford University. She told the Daily News that she bumped into him on freshman move-in day and began a friendship, which turned into romance. When Moos thinks back to their time together, she says she couldn't recall any awkward moments with the NBA star. When the newspaper asked if she could remember any times that had her questioning Collins' sexual orientation, she said "No."
"Every morning, he woke up and put on a mask for 33 years," Moos said. "That's unbelievable to me...I just can't imagine going through 33 years of your life and denying yourself out of fear."
Moos also spoke with TMZ about Collins' revelation and said, "It's very emotional for me as a woman to have invested [eight] years in my dream to have a husband, soul mate, and best friend in him. So this is all hard to understand. I care about [Jason] tremendously and only want the best for him. I want Jason to be happy for a lifetime and stay true to who he really is, inside and out."
Collins said he wasn't ready to come out until recently, telling Bill Simmons of Grantland.com, that he "wasn't comfortable in my own skin. If you had asked me five years ago if I was gay I would've flat-out lied to you and denied it."
But Collins' coming out was extremely well received as the athlete was lauded for his announcement. Everyone from President Barack Obama, former President Bill Clinton, Ellen DeGeneres, Kobe Bryant and a number of other sports stars offered their support.
"I told him that I couldn't be prouder of him," President Obama said of Collins Tuesday. "This is just one more step in the ongoing recognition that we treat everybody fairly."
Though Moos told ESPN she is hurt, confused and embarrassed, she still hopes Collins will find himself and happiness.
"He called me Sunday, and we spoke Monday morning and Monday night," Moos told the Daily News. "He's really opening up a lot. I care a lot about him. I really think he will be in my life forever."